求这段话的英文翻译。

sorry for ignoring you for such a long time. it's not me do not want to. i lie to myself to be proud, but i'举枝ve been notice your for every move, and bare in my mind. i'm sorry. please forgive my weakness for lacking courage to apologize to you. maybe it'和拍s my willfulness that makes you tired. but no matter what you'正棚敏re gonna say and how you're gonna treat me, i'd like to say, i'm really sorry,and i won't be that willful any more.

I am so regret of ingoring you for such a long time. It wasn't that I had no such desire, it's my self-respect betrayed my heart. Every moves you made was caught in my eyes and imprinted in my mind. Pardon me for lack of courage to beg for your forgivness. Maybe it's my wild character makes you tired of. No matter what and how you will think, I would still say it sincerely deep from heart, I am so sorry. Belive me I will never ever hurt you again.